Monday, October 31, 2005
lalala
one more week to the time of reckoning
well some people have their exams started today already. hope the paper was easy
well to my dear jc1, hope u do well in chinese too.
got some people to come over and study tml
hope this group study thingy rrly worked as i have not been absorbing much lately.
i put in more time into reading, but cant seem to rmb anything.
the last dash
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8:26 pm
Friday, October 28, 2005
well
maybe i shud give up growing a goatee
damn it is difficult being sick now
i have to stuff the tissue paper box under my right armpit and then sneeze in my left hand. cause the right winky hurt so bad
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10:18 pm
Thursday, October 27, 2005
for those concern
i will be ok
the hand will heal
i was assure by the doc
some stupid small bone
thanks to those that were concern
i will live on
stronger
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10:17 pm
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
i hate myself
my worst fears
it is a fracture
means i cannot recover as fast as i want
no bball in my life for quite a while
not exactly perfect condition to study
i hate myself
y did i break down then
y did i give in to stupid emotion that i cannot even rmb now
watever happens i will not give in again
no excuse to being a failure
life was too easy b4
it just got interesting
i am still going to get the results and party after which
i will not allow myself to use this as an excuse.
tts me, i am who i am
for now,
i hate myself
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11:13 pm
Monday, October 24, 2005
hooray
hey this post is just to remind myself and tell everybody that i won the newpaper ticket to ou de yang concert on nov 3rd. i had a feeling that i will win when i called that day but i was still suprised when they called me today.
well for the number of newpaper i brought over the years, i think i deserved it.
haha. wanted to go but dunno who to ask to go with me. then my mum says she want it so maybe i will give her. but look out for my name in the newpaper. haha, i found jean yong's name but i dun think it is her. it is found on saturday, sports section
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5:22 pm
Saturday, October 22, 2005
crisis
woah i having a bad time man
first time i want to study
and yet i just cant bring myself to do.
good talking to ching and picking myself up
i noe one hour a day is not good enough
hope it will change next week
well ching i played dota after talking to you, haha
cant sleep either, with a bad hand i managed a 1-5 b4 i left game to sleep.
thats a confession, abit guilty, well i said i have picked myself up so i guess i need some action to prove it
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11:09 pm
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
lalala
woah i guess i can type since i played dota today
yeah
ok this page is not about girls and will nvr be
but i just have to add my own bus stop story
in fact it is a bus interchange story.
today after i played dota, i took a train all the way to bedok where i wanted to cab home.
there was a long Q for taxi and i was lazy to wait
i walked to the bus interchange and on the way there
i couldn't help looking at this vjc girl in front of me.
i decided to stop looking and went to buy new paper
i think that looking at girls from a far is such an uncool act.
after i brought new paper, i realise she is still in front of me
then she went to join the Q for bus 17
i saw the bus 18 coming and chiong for it.
sigh a number different
haha bet i caught a lot of u there. the story is half fictional... :P
ok as i was bathing, i thought throught each class in cjc and see which class i do not know anyone, there is T4 amd T5, i dunno which class colin is from. and then the rest of the classes i will at least recognise one person. well i will rmb for a few more months at least. so well, that is a little regret in my vibrant cjc life. oh well, nth is perfect. and i am definately not, better stopped slacking and reading naruto and playing with google earth. oh yeah gaara almost died. for those who noe wat i am talking about. argh there is no bleach this week. if i change a new skin. u can bet it is bleach. the payout will be like $1.15 for every dollar.
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10:47 pm
Monday, October 17, 2005
ouch
i still cant type...stupid hand, i might have to relearn how to use the chopstick
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8:30 pm
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Last day of school
din want to post anything
to keep the previous post at the top
but it is a significant day today
today is the day that i can say that i have become a product of the singapore education system.
after twelve years, this is who i am
this is what i learn
will i be useful
will i be able to survive
who knows?
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9:56 pm
Sunday, October 02, 2005
A walk down memory lane
this got to be the most meangiful post til now
it is about yesterday
not that going for tuition and linette's birthday was boring
but yesterday was an important day in my life
not about playing soccer and injuring my leg in my new mizuno boots
but about visit the house i grew up in
or at least spent the first ten years of my life
the view from my house, one that i was used to
after i played soccer, i took a bus back to my old house where my dad was packing up stuff as it was about to be torn down. we sold the house in wat u call an en-bloc sales. which basically means the whole place will be demolish and new buildings will be build on the land.
i missed my stop, either delibrately or destined, i got to walk a longer path back in, one that i used to walk everyday, one which was the only one i knew for a long time. i tried to cut through the grass patch that i used to, the one behind my classmates house. forgotting that it was gone, there stood three new terrance house. gone were the mimosa that i used to step, gone were the woonden planks that i used to cross the long kang.
i walked round the street, finding the roads farmilar but yet the house were new and renovated, bartley sec school which appear when i was primary two was expanding and looked frightening huge and out of place in my quiet neighbourhood. i also notice that the mango tree growing near the grass patch was gone too. the female papaya tree was still there but it was one that never bear fruits as there was no male tree nearby.
i walked past the empty security post and the guard house which i used to play hide and seek, the see-saws behind it was gone too, it is now and extended area for the BBQ pits.
i decided to head upstairs in search of more memories, on the second floor i tried something that i did everyday when i was young. i climb the stairs using the hand rails which allows me to complete one flight of steps with one pull. it was suprisingly easy, probably because i am taller now. the rails felt wobbly, they either aged or i was getting fat.
more shocking thing was to be seen when i saw the door, it was old and definately doesn't look like the one when i left it. it is the one on the right.
it was open when i arrived and i went in to see my dad sorting out junk. i took a slow observatory tour up the steps to the next spilt level and down that ten metres corridor that i got the scar on my right shin. i discovered that all four toiilets were in a very bad state, something i would not have allow when i was staying there. my grandma's room was totally empty and i did not wish to step in and think about her. i head my room after i discover that the toilet that i used to bath in was tarnish and was burned about three years ago.
then i went to my room, to dicover that the cupboard that i use to put my clothes was still around, it was broken and all, but i can recongise it, i found a can of spray paint in my mum's room and use it to vandalise my wall, it was to be torn down anyway. i took a few photos to show u guys how high the ceiling was.
after which i went to look at the split level and the kitchen, wat memory of the first place i took the plunge literally from the top of the cupboard at the split level and the first place i was locked in by a moment of folly on my part.
As i was leaving i took a few snap shots of the place for keepsake, the same scene which i will try to keep in my head for as long as i can. the same sight will probably never appear before my eyes or anybody's for that matter.
i waited for those coconut tree to grow until they could reach my house on the fourth floor and i could the coconuts from my window. they finally did but it will all be gone soon.
just before i finished this post, this is the picture of the guard house and my dad's car beside it. i wanted to post this yesterday but i was too tired after soccer, i slept at 7 pm last night, hence it was late. oh well got to do TJC's chem sometime soon before chelski vs LFC.
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7:18 pm
