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2009-02-13T01:18:00.001+08:00

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wow

2009-01-14T23:07:00.002+08:00

after 5 click
can feel it already

was running at an ah pek's pace somemore
cui

should be able to spend this sem well
it started well
all wells ends well

i should start my quest to learn about the truth but i got that feeling it will come to me again
then i will write it down

TGIF

2008-04-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

oh man
had the longest and most classes in a row today as my life as a teacher in CJC
time table
taught 1T36 chemistry from 8 to 9 ( horrible)
then PE for 2T22 for PE from 9 to 10 (not too good)
another PE class for 1T33 from 10 to 11 (better)
and then chemistry again from 11 to 12 ( thank god for more than friday)

had lunch and then immediately needed to go for SPM
it is all about Evaluation OMG

sigh
had council after that
couldn't join my colleague for Yum Cha
but it is ok

council ended early at 5 plus
watch abit of handball
before my dad picked me up
i thank my parents for always being there
still pick me up when i am 20
haha
oh well
not everyone gets to be me

School holiday

2008-03-10T00:06:00.000+08:00

yes
first school holiday as a teacher
sleeping late
lets go

2008 new year resolution

2008-01-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

1. Getting my long awaited NYAA Gold.
2. Getting IPPT gold.
3. Learn Sailing.
4. Travel with friends. (preferably to Europe or Africa)
5. Exercise more and getting injured less.
6. Celebrated my 21st birthday in my style.
7. Being true to my word. (including promise to do house work)
8. Making the JC 1 classrooms fun.
9. Being an inspiration to JC 2 Student.
10. Learning Office 2007.
11. Being open to University Orientation and Participate Actively.
12. Pick good first modules and do extremely well.
13. Spend those scholarship money wisely.
14. 13 is not a good number to stop.
15. So we end at 15.

it took me to the end of jan to write this when it shud be start of jan
but oh well i violated number 7 abit due to tt
but since it is not up then, there is no need to feel guilt
yupz

i think this is better anyway, a month into the year is when u start knowing wat to do anyway.
that should be the end of it.

first mambo night of 2008

2008-01-24T09:32:00.000+08:00

i think i am too easily sway by signs
which might be sub-conciusly caused by my own assumption

tuesday i was think in school that wednesday would be pay day. then i realise it is a pay day on wednesday and that can only mean one thing. Going mambo. Haha
during nightly dota sessions, i of my dota khakis and sec four classmate ask if anyone wanted to go mambo the next day.

the next day as i was on the way to school. my dad was on gold 90 fm and there was a mambo song
first sign
and then i decided to ask my colleagues to go. there was positive response
2nd sign

so i decided to go anw. even though i have to drive today.
but oh well it was good fun
i met and hang out with my JC classmate
and another of my sec four classmate

but the lack of sleep and driving is terrible

guess mambo sessions will be cut down

teaching

2008-01-14T21:49:00.001+08:00

oh man teaching is more difficult than i thought

but oh well

new things everyday

and i am kai pin

rafael

it is new year again

2008-01-01T16:16:00.000+08:00

oh man
wat a crazy way to spend the new year
i stayed up til four on new year's day in a ktv room and yet we din even count down
haha
must be abit dumb to go with my sis
but it was good fun
after a short trip to cjc on new year's eve
with nothing to do except a msg to go to church
i decided to follow my sis
went out with her boyfriend and his brothers.
watch alvin and the chipmucks
rrly surpising to see a christmas movie being full house on new year's eve
haha
went to play pool and the enter ktv at 10 pm
oh man
who would have thought i could survive a 6 hours ktv thing
i used to hate my mess which only had a ktv
haha
well i guess it is abit more interesting with the other gender along
even if they are other people's girlfren
see kai pin is innocent
cause they can reach certain pitch and choose different songs
just wanted to record this down
shud be off to write my new year's resolution
haha

welcome to the age of 21
coming soon

holiday....vietnam...hanoi

2007-12-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

it wasn't the most expensive trip but certainly one of best family holiday ever
i believed my family have been through a lot of holidays and frequent fights in between
this holiday certainly showed a lot of maturity from all of us. i think i have grown up and my family together with me
i thank god, whoever and wherever u may be, for such a wonderful family

there wasn't much to buy from vietnam unlike thailand or taiwan. my family's favourite destination. it is a shopping family. but it has also cause me to hate shopping a little. haha
i like buying things, esp when my father pays. i am so spoilt. but i just dun like walking. that was until army, haha thank the route marches, oh god. yeah but i still din like to listen to my mum and sis shop. it is such a bother, but i get used to it.

without buying much, tts wat make this 7 days such a unique experience. from all modes of transportation, kai pin the great traveller has experience northern vietnam in winter(or such relatively cold weather). From the sampan to chinese junk. to walking and flying with our very own defense minister. and top it up with a train ride in between. all in this 7 days. incredable isn't it. and i spent much time sleeping as well.

thats good time mamagement. just because i sleep less at home doesn't mean i achieve more
i believe in stepping out of the house. i have seen so much more with my eyes opening less.haha

day 0
flew off in the afternoon and reach there in the evening
had my first dinner in vietnam.
my very first of many beef kway liao soup or hanoi soup or beef "noodle" soup as they called it.
then it is off to SUNNY hotel. nice place. about 9 levels of 7 rooms each. cool place with city view.
spent the first night there recovering from flight and psp hour begins.

day 1
yupz
travelled a few hours on bus just to get to a place for my sampan trip
then i saw three caves on the hour long sampan ride.
haha slight drizzle but good fun all together
got sent to dinner and then straight to the train station
this is so exciting. kai pin at twenty for his first train ride. Lets go.
the interior of our cabin was similar to tt on board a cruise just smaller and minus the cuboards.
made up of two double beds with an ally in between
the luggage can only go below the bed.
well it was a night in the train
msg ivan at singapore time midnight to wish him happy birthday. sry not to have internet so i can wish over free msn. just joking. (You are worth the msg) haha.

day 2
work up the next day at 0530.
sound so army
feel so army but oh well
the enviroment is so much more fun
i was on a train in a foreign land
walk out and saw a sign with my sis's name
had breakfast at a cafe and it was an hour journey to good old SAPA.
one of the tourist places tt had a strong french culture
that was where i found out tt vietnamese is just another dialet of chinese but due its french ties, they discard the chinese character and adopted the french.
so u can say that vietnamese is the like han yu pin yin in french.
hope i am not confusing anyone
we went for a treking tour, oh man can it was tough, if i nvr been through army i would have complain like hell, thank god afternoon was free time. haha
watch liverpool man u tt night and i shud leave it as tt. sobs.

day 3
we woke up for more trekking
this time more uphill and yes my family gave up half way and came down early
but it was good fun
then we are back to the railway
at the same cafe
with the same boss
the same section of the train but this time much older and more metal instead of wood

day 4
woke up even earlier
0430
oh man
the train is worst than airplane timing
haha
took a three hour long ride to Halong bay
tts a really nice place
it was near the sea
kai pin's home
we are treated better and given rest til lunch
and lunch is on a wooden chinese junk
large ship and only my family
private yacht
just wooden
haha we had seafood, just plain and boil but oh well natural i guess.
the chinese junk cost USD$40,000 only
definately gonna get one of these next time
by time we were on shore again
it was dinner and after dinner we went to night market
oh well
tourist stuff

day 5
3 hour journey on good old mercendies bus back to hanoi
and then we visited some famous pagoda and temples
good fun
got to know a japanese teacher and his students
the hightlight had to be the water puppet show
really a great technique and good show
but an hour of the show seem a little dragging
even more as i did not understand the dialogue

day 6
my family went to a day market and wholesale centre
i decided not to go and take a walk around the hotel
hoping for better luck
but oh well all females stuff
i only got gift for almost nobody at all
and absolutely nothing for my self
argh

but still this is one of the most fun trip
ever
i feel like travelling immediately after i came back
i am born to move
i am born to lead
follow my lead around the whole
kai pin the soon-to-be great traveller

just an entry

2007-12-14T05:02:00.000+08:00

i cannot believe my last entry was aug tenth after ndp
i have been the freeest man since.

haha
when you want to get something done.
get a busy person to do it.

i am only entering an entry because i am going on holiday tml.
could be another entry in a long time. so i did it.

just wanted to hear the song only love by trademark once again
brings back memories from everywhere including bmt.

2 A.M. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're tellin me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say -- try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough -- if we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

don't let it be.

school

2007-08-10T22:52:00.001+08:00

went back to cjc that day pretty cool
PAC and all
wat a great performance by gym
minor screw up
but oh well
NDP has screw up too

haha

EPL is gonna start
go torres go

My soccer team is going to have a jersey
so cool
more matches coming up
i hope to play in all of them

then the next big event
ORD ORD ORD

then it is back to study
got degree so happy

:)

award presentation ceremony

2007-07-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

just need to mark this moment in my blog
that i have recieve the Keppel group scholarship award
yupz

life plan for the next ten years
wat a boring person i am
oh well
i like feeling secured
:)

end of teenage

2007-06-05T00:33:00.001+08:00

yupz
saw many juniors today
pretty interesting
however the most important thing is that i decided what i will do for the next ten years of my life after others plan the first twenty
thanks ivan for reading the bond deed with me
it is a significant moment of my life
i really appreciated it
i liked the book better though
haha just joking
yupz now i am twenty
no more playing punk i gues
down to earth
the plain KAI PIN

burning weekends

2007-05-26T02:55:00.000+08:00

i have been going back to work for a month on saturday and for this two weeks it is going to be both day of weekends. yupz i believe that they are all not too bad experiences. i enjoyed some of it.
however i needed a break and thankfully now that my platoon is also involved, i am also getting monday off.
really gald to met my CJC council friends and mostly from exco. See!!!!!!!!! there can be friends among politics and it is really cool.
i must thank the organiser, charrissa and the liaision, jeremiah for inviting me on a day i am free.
later today i am meeting my class and i really hope u guys will wait for me.
sigh
i am going to end late
no worries i will still meet those that came back from overseas. :)
i went to zouk tonight
and approach a girl for a dance
i ask myself why do i always ask the hardest nut to crack
haha yes i got rejected. i admit. but oh well. at least i was not desprate enough to approach some slut. sorry to be insulting, i might have drink too much

i need to record this for me to see how stupid i was.
i am damn happy with who i am and what i have achieve
however if i could re live one month of my life
please let it me the month of Feburary 2005.

perhaps i would have do things more approately.
oh well, no regret, just imperfect
:))

for a long time

2007-04-25T11:35:00.000+08:00

i wanted to post for a long time but haven been able to do it.
oh well
currently on a one week MC thats why i got the time to blog
oh well it is not all gloomy
check out the army blog for the stressed i am going through.
one week MC for wisdom tooth extraction
and boy does it hurt.
trying to settle all the medical problems at one shot
going for my blood test later
going to be super busy from mid may onwards
thus i really hope to meet up with some people
going for my keppel scholarship final interview tml
hopefully i do not screwed up and make it
studying locally is fine
i just need more dicipline to study
really anyone who wants to meet up?
please try not to choose this week
haha i look weird with a swollen left cheek

liv

2007-03-10T08:22:00.000+08:00

ok
no army
no block leave
first trip to momo
first time i brought a jug
cost 68 dollars
will rmb 4 life
hahaha
oh will at least it taste good
no 1 for 1 really like waste money
oh well maybe the 18 dollars for 18 mins was worth it
why the hell did i go back inside for a jug
haha
dun spent here also will not spent anywhere else
hopefully i get to catch more during NTU open house and commisioning parade
so sad to be watching from the stands again

CNY

2007-02-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

the chinese new year period is here again
did mostly the same thing except that i skip a prof's house
went ivan's house for visiting with strawberry instead of cherries there this year. funny hainvg such fruit during CNY
found out about a cute girl having her bdae during this festive period
the weekend was just about the same
i cut my hair
spend the whole chingay period at home playing game
quite no life
brought a television ant and other stuff to bring into camp
i think i cannot feel the festive mood anymore
i din buy new clothes
i din meet new relative
in fact i meet less
it is becoming stagnat that some of these people i just see once a year
but overall it is fun
seeing older cousin settling down and working
seeing younger cousin growing up, saying their first few sentence and att sec school
well thats all
try visting my army blog on my links
thankz

yay

2007-02-16T20:13:00.000+08:00

Chinese new year long holiday
oh well this chinese new year got six days break from army
ole ole ole
haha
not i dun want to update
got no time la
and also no date for valetines
sigh
no time to ask anyone
cant think of anyone
ended up clubbing on wednesday
wah but not bad la
some older woman quite good looking
too bad i not interested
haha
then i thought no date on valentines so save money already
ended up spending so much money on cab to hospital
that i din save at all.
damn
ok no grumble liao
six day break is still a six day break

weekend without driving

2007-02-02T18:52:00.000+08:00

wah cool week
passed so fast i din even realise
went out to buy soccer boots for this saturday soccer match and also lighthouse vs raft
then met a friend to take a walk around toa payoh
great experience to meet up with her made possible by the pasam malam
yeah just when i had no driving
and thought i can slack
i have to go outfield on sunday
sigh
poyan reservoir
and i have to do some NDP stuff
ridiculous
well it is ok
at least this saturday i got a soocer match to look forward to
pray hard. no injury

sianz

2007-01-27T16:52:00.000+08:00

NDP is a lot of work
ok i promised not to talk about NS here
i din drive in circuit today
and my next lesson is probably in march
super screwed up
drive on the road quite boring no cha bo to see one
but anw i always quite cocked today
stalled and stalled
ok going to the 30th and 31st CI wing reunion liao
tata and good bye
shud be creating the NS blog soon

kua cha bo

2007-01-21T09:15:00.000+08:00

As i said i will not talk about NS here
so i will talk about my driving lesson that day
i was apporoach a vehicle in the circuit that was not moving
i was told to overtake it
so i did the normal procedure and check the rear mirror
then i saw the car behind
lady driver
look quite pretty
then came the funny part
i forgot to overtake
then obviously i got scolded
hahaha in army terms, it was probably saying something like chee bye la ask u check rear mirror u stare so long, glance to check then look in front, lucky u in circuit if not u lan ga already.
but seriously speaking learning driving on weekends at CDC got a lot of chio bu every week
haha thats y this diligent student will go
ok let go to the important part of this post
NS has made me appretiate many things better
like my parents, food, internet access, my sister(the real one) and others
more significally, it has change the way i kua cha bo
in secondary school i usually see them in batches
and usually they are discarded as a grp as cmi
in JC i had to treat them like individual and it was fantastic that i got to learn so many things from them, maybe i shud have been in a co-ed sec sch, but anyhow, i am passed that stage
in terms of looks only(no offence to anybody)
i had classification, there was pretty, cute and cmi(cannot make it)
:)
then in NS i realise that the classification was too broad and i will lead a sad life if this stays
nowadays there is so many more ways i can describe an average girl
like: chio, pretty, bubbly, cute, decent, pleasant, sweet, acquired or unique and of course the undeniably cmi is still ard
hahahaha
shit this is damn bad, y am i talking like tt
sigh
bored and i wanted to record this thought somewhere
no offence but jean if u are wondering, u are under sweet and acquired

commision lor

2007-01-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

yay
i got my blog back but i think i still might get another blog
haha
see how
wanna change add and start afresh
maybe the new one will be for day to day activities
wah this is for deep thoughts
haha like i have any
cannot talk too much in my blog about army and OCS
later leak too much info then will get charge.
sianz
life have been a been different after i commision
dedication of work is something i must learn to do efficiently and i must do it fast.
my platoon have been very co-operative and i am glad
for more on my NS life probably the new blog lor.
no time now
stupid NDP
and dun ask for tickets to NDP i might not have any to give
although i will try to ask
it is time maybe i will continue talking about girls who like pink or orange.
hahahaha
sweet

wow

2006-08-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

ok this week went by pretty quickly
circles circles and more circles
spend the week drawing circles
signalz life

6km to home

2006-07-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

did a 6km run at east coast
then i went to marine parad
took a long time to go home as i forgot my key
argh
long story i dun want to say

wow busy weekend

2006-07-23T10:39:00.000+08:00

ok finally i made use of all my book out time meeting up
well my test on tuesday can wait

diarrhoea - a god's send?

2006-07-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

yes i went back to camp
spend one day in sick bay
book out for att C tml
yes god
i ask to loss weight
but not diarrheoa
sigh
i din noe a person can actually fall sick for so long
hmm no fever
no nothing
on the road of recovery he says
lets see how many times i go toilet tml

sigh

2006-07-16T12:27:00.000+08:00

having diarrhea
sianz
elearning is down
a lot of things to be done by today
photos, cut hair for parade
argh why must book in

stagmont signals camp

2006-07-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

can u believe a day in SAF camp begin with the world cup finals
haha
then it is lecture all week
plus tuesday and friday pt
u get to book out on friday too
cool shit

down

2006-07-09T14:39:00.000+08:00

when a man is down
he is really down man

yesterday i went to beach road to do my shirts for NS
then went to sim lim to settle all the computer stuff.

before that i was given two esplanade tickets and was told to ask someone along with me
wah first time i felt it was so difficult to get another person to watch wat i thought might be a lame concert.
i needed to find someone who will not complain
i ask ivan in the end, luckily he din complain
haha
thats cause the performance was good man
soundwave a musical journey
yeah that not the only bad thing that happened man

i thought if personels were tough luck yesterday
machines became worse
ok i got to sit as a patron on a motorcycle
quite a new experience
i dunno if i sat before
yeah but my friend sent me to the mrt then i realise i cannot use the student ez link anymore
argh
had to take cab
then surrender my ez link card and use the stupid green one
omg
sigh

when a man is down
he is really down

there and back again

2006-07-06T15:02:00.000+08:00

oh yes
out of the jungle the mighty jungle
haha
i dun have much to write
but there was much i went though
i just want to say that navigation in the jungle and hollanding is no fun
for more information u can ask me about it

brunei

2006-06-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

wah sick rrly cannot go out
having headache now
argh
nvm
i will still watch england

sigh
going off tml
bye bye singapore
i going off to train and defend u
u are my country
these are my friends
you people need me to carry my SAR
yay

NOW

2006-06-22T12:09:00.000+08:00

i quote from best quote website

The past is only history, the future is only a prediction. Your opportunity is NOW. Right now, at the same moment you are reading this, you can start doing things you never thought you had time to do before. This phenomenon I call the Challenge of Nows. In the world of great expectations, time consists of infinite Nows. Each Now contains an instantaneous opportunity. Right after you finish this, remember to take advantage of every Now possible and miracles shall happen to your life. The Nows are infinite so basically you have got time to accomplish EVERYTHING that is humanly conceivable and maybe even more. This I call the Challenge of Nows because each Now is available to all of us so don't waste anymore and DO what you have to do, NOW.

- Philippos

yes NOW i am free
NOW i am on leave
i will go out even if i am sick
cause NOW do not last
going brunei
2359 monday 26th december
NOW is the only time
people who are free pls contact me
haha

sick man

2006-06-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

i am sick
cannot go anywhere
i missed my graduation march
feel so useless
just went up to get my third white bar

sick
more road march to come in signalz
no worries

signals here i come

2006-06-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

last weekend before i get my three white bars
yay going to signals camp
oh yeah
72km route march
oh shit
lol

i got my world cup channel and my psp
life is going quite well
probably can start driving lessons soon
then start my life planning again

sigh not the end of the world
2 years of NS thats all
i considered serving for my life time
wat is 2 years

World Cup

2006-06-11T10:15:00.000+08:00

Ole Ole Ole
world cup fever is on
in this book out
i immediately went to yiyong house to watch world cup
as i forgot to subscribe to world cup channel
shit
sigh
subscribing soon
yupz booking in today again
haha
nights off on tuesday
ole ole ole

super long weekend that was cut

2006-06-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

argh
suppose to book friday afternoon and book in monday night
sigh going back tml morning to do my extra

wasted my precious civilian time
in camp i must hate civilian

social night was fun
and i was glad my assitant saved me
by attending it
hard to imagine going without a date
phew

some girl ps me la. sigh

another long weekend

2006-05-20T11:48:00.000+08:00

life is good with long weekends
yes
i pass SOC
8:53 man
haha
not very good
at least i passed
i can go supprt arms now
oh yeah
signals and engineers here i come

no more sms too
sigh
i dun want to waste that A levels cert

blast form the past

2006-05-11T22:18:00.000+08:00

wah weekend burned again

i injured myself during CIP again
how typical of me
sigh
reminds me of some things in the past

need to book in early in morning
sianzzz

long weekend

2006-05-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

my first long weekend
sian sian
then i typing this just before i go back camp
got no time to write anything la
long weekend also must do NS stuff
my OCS diary three weeks nvr write liao must complete in an hour
i am going to eat my banana and chocolate and drink my beer while playing dota
screwed patrol field camp.

new start point

2006-05-01T10:18:00.000+08:00

the dream that i had
the name that should be engrave on those board are not gone
new begining
i fail my PSC interview
but it is ok
at least i made it to the shortlist of say 73 people
i shot myself in the foot but oh well

new begining
new start
plan again
no harm done
one and a half year to do that now
take my time
i will complete and join the officer corps
if one interview was enough to determine that i am not good enough
i have a lot to learn

next year
i will learn driving
i will retake my SATS
look into my uni application
look into other scholarship
i still want to go overseas
i will need to see how
local uni is not bad
NTU accepted me
that was where i wanted to go, three years ago

all in all
i am still an over achiever
i should work harder
seek to improve as a person
even my PC points out so much
he ask me to do self reflection
i should start clearing my self doubts
i am who i am
i made it to this point on my own
i should carry on

well being rejected is not so bad
all my options are open now
there are actually more choices

i believe in my pc
if u are not a bum
y worry
just work hard la

and i am not a bum!!!!!!!

Dare to Excel Learn to Teach Another(DELTA)

2006-04-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

after three weeks of confinement i am finally able to post again.
hi everybody

THE DELTA EXPERIENCE
first begin with a song:

we come from many places
all across the land
from many different races
together hand in hand
united we stand
divided we fall
ready to serve our nation's call

we come from OCS
we are the very best
leading with dignity and pride
wherever we go
we will always know our sprits lives forever more

loyalty to country is what we all believe
to lead, excel and overcome
is what we must achieve
fovever strong and valiant
we will give our lives and more
never ceasing to serve singapore

we come from delta wing
we are the best of best
standing before the delta test
wherever we go
everyone knows we are the scholars wing

for all the people who do not know
scholars are not treated nicely
they are given speacial training to tough up
a different standard, a cut above the rest is expected
that is where you will find delta wing
where the best comes from

i am lucky to be in it and it is really interesting to talk to all my new peers of such calibre, i would oso like to gauge myself against them
i seems to be behind most of the time
nvm
things will change
i will wake up my idea and forge ahead

the delta experience
it change me from a laid back attitude
to now
when i only expect the best from myself
anything less is not acceptable
i am among the best
now i need to shine among them
if we were a galaxy of stars
i hope to be the brightest!

i change buddy within two weeks of OCS
first i had a RJC buddy, Karl. he was from student council too but he went over to navy, i could have follow suit but it is a long story.
my new buddy came from sierra, from VJC.
it going to be a fun service term.
Daryl Lim, now i noe another one.
we got along quite fast
hopefully it stays that way and work super well tgt
then i can survive and excel to be an infantry

there is a lot of things to say
but as everyone noes i am not long winded
so i shall stop

P.S. the SAR 21 is so much cooler than the M16 but it is heavier too. argh

Scholars

2006-03-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

i going to be in SAFTI MI tml
and i just noe that i will be in the scholars coy after today talk
yay hope it is slack
ok
tts all i need to say
going to serve my three weeks confinement tml
so good bye for now
i missed all of u
and to the people i din get to meet
like teresa... sometime later then
:)

today is nice day

2006-03-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

yes
first i need to tell everybody i woke at 6 for a strange reason
then i went online to check liverpool score
5-1
ole
three out of four strikers score
eventhough they were not great goals
they score

then i went back to sleep
and wake up to go to civil service college for tt PSC psycometric test
damn
this is going to be funny
i was almost caught in a fire drill by the college
so dumb
i finished just b4 the bell rang
and walked out as if i was the arsonist
lol

went to the le merdien hotel
the one i used to play lan for the US uni talks
useless
i did found a company to prepare me for SATS
which is good
i want to do better

then i went to my sec four class outing
i was glad tt there was quite a lot of people
:)
though people who did not come still did not come
it was fun
most left
and then there were threee
caught the movie V for vendatta
good movie

i recommend it to every person who enjoy the novels, 1984 or brave new worlf
and oso like the matrix special effects.

SHIT FORGOT

2006-03-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

OK I FORGOT TO SAY THAT I GOT MORE MOSQUITO BITES AT HOME THAN AT TEKONG, NICE LIFE BESIDE RESERVOIR, HUH?
YA I PLAYED AN HOUR OF BASKETBALL TODAY.
COOL SHIT, KID ONE AND A HALF HEAD SHORTER THAN ME BURN ME, FIRST TIME
AND HE SHOOT HIS THREE POINTER 1.5 METRES AWAY FROM THE THREE POINT ARC. WOW

OH NO IT IS ENDING

2006-03-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

SIAN,
I DID NOT RRLY MEET ANYBODY
HOPEFULLY THE NEXT FEW DAYS WILL BE BETTER
I ALREADY PLANNED AN OUTING WITH MY SEC FOUR CLASS
DUNNO HOW MANY WILL TURN UP?
HOPEFULLY IT WILL BE GOOD AS IT IS ONE PERSON'S, WHO CAME BACK FROM AUSTRALIA TO SERVE NS, BIRTHDAY.
AND I DUNNO WHERE I WILL BE POSTED TO
IT IS AS SCARY AS COLLECTING RESULT
U SEE IF I DUN GET INTO OCS
THEN I PROBABLY DUN NEED TO TYPE SO MUCH SCHOLARSHIP CRAP THAT I AM DOING NOW, WHICH IS Y I AM TYPING IN BLOCK LETTERS AS THEY REQUIRED ME TO DO SO.
BUT NOW I DUN RRLY CARE WHERE I GO
I SHOULD AT LEAST BE IN SISPEC
THEN THE ONLY THING I HOPE FOR
NO MATTER OCS OR SISPEC
I WANT TO BE IN SIGNALS OR NAVY
HAHA
I WANNA KENG
SHIT I SHUD NOT SAY THIS SO LOUD
MAYBE I CAN GET OUT OF THE GREEN OF ARMY IF I SIGN ON WITH THE POLICE OR SCDF, I SERIOUSLY DUN MIND. IT WAS ONE OF MY CHILDHOOD AMBITION TO BE A FIREMAN. HAHA
OK AND FOR JEAN, I WILL CHANGE YOUR NAME AGAIN
THIS SHUD BE IN BLOCK BLOCK LETTERS SO EVERYBODY WILL NOE THE TROUBLE U ARE. :P

12 days a free man

2006-03-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

POPOPOPOPOPOPOPOPOPOPOP!!!!! POP!!!!
today is my pass out day pass out pass out
today is my pass out day pass out pass out
today is my pass out day pass out pass out day.

haha had my passing out parade to mark the end of BMT today. oh yes
no more tekong
no more SOC
no more IFC
no more stand by bed
no more M16

ok actually bmt is not tt bad
i am going to miss it
all the way jan06 direct enhance intake
ORION 2 PLATOON 2
may the bonds form last forever

ok actually this post is to tell the whole world
that i will be free for the next 12 days
until 19th march
so for all the people who rmb their most lovable ex-classmat, cca mate, senior or junior....
please make ur reservation today..
i got no slots taken yet
:)

ok tt was abit ego
but i am serious
i wanna meet all my friends
new and old
close and aquintance
older and younger
everyone

last full week in bmt

2006-03-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

booked out to collect results
not bad
quite happy about it

then i book in for games day
super sian
finished second
seem to have a trend inmy life
always second
well i am fine with that though
at least i am always amoung the best

wah 24km road march ytd
shiok ar
whole body pain
monday go back SOC
i will pass SOC. oh yeah

today i will remember to change jean's name
:)

POP 7th march

this is quite sad
i will missed my section, my platoon and my company line.

A levels result

2006-02-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

good luck to everybody collecting result tml

ps: i am super scared la
sure screwed up something like my Os

today is my book out day

2006-02-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

wah
i book out on tuesday night
went for WSO interview
failed it
then book in on wednesday night
took malaria pills
took EI survey
then i book out again
WTF
now i got free time to type this
haha
going back tonight
throwing a grenade tml
then i am book out again
lol
today is my book out day book out book out
no more SOC, no more IFC
today is my book out day book out book out day!
yay!

23 hours

2006-02-02T10:19:00.000+08:00

nope that is not the brand of a watch

tts the amount of time i had to hang out with jeremiah

haha.. this is freaking gay.
but i guess i will just post it for the sake of it
this person made it go all the way to woodlands to watch a movie
then we missed the last bus
then we took a cab to my house
in which he managed to surprise my whole family
zai, even i dun get to do that

haha they we met up with others in school and it clock all the way to 23 hours
sad life
considering i need to spend valentine's with 48 other guys this year
i shud not be spending so much time with one dude

haha

CNY

2006-01-30T10:13:00.000+08:00

happy lunar new year to everybody

life is sian

field camp straight after this

no hp

no nothing

sigh

but it will be fun

:)

24-7

2006-01-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

in the past the SAF mean 24 hours a day 7 days a week. always on standby. always ready

today the SAF in bmtc is for every 24 hours u are gurantee 7 hours to sleep. it is still 24-7 but so much more welfar

long live CARE FOR SOLDIER.

haha
i love progressive training and welfare.
plus cheap insurance

book out

2006-01-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

wah i nvr been so happy to have hari raya
haha
book out book out
i get so sian about camp so fast
i think i die liao

i am a soldier
i am a soldier
i am a soldier
i am a soldier
i am a soldier
i am a soldier
i am a soldier
i am a soldier......................

bye people

2006-01-04T10:49:00.000+08:00

i wanted to change my skin and add jean to my links but i dun think i have time now

sometime later

bear with this stupid war one first

i thought that i will be joining the army soon

so my notion should not be so anit war

yupz bye bye for now

happy new year everybody

booking in soon

2006-01-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

ya
"sad" happy new year
need to say farewell to so many people
it hurts
ok it is just the army
i wanted to go in since secondary school anw
but well there are friends leaving the country which is just sad

i want to say sorry to all the people that i pang seh for other people these few days
i just wanna meet as many different people as possible
well too little time to meet everyone

so b4 hari raya
it is good bye for now

life is full of surpises

meeting people with long hair

2005-12-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

i want to meet more friends. at least when i still have hair
ytd i had a first three months reunion
i hope to meet my OCIP people
my sec four class
my sec two class
my t16 class
but i dun think i have time
argh
and my phone have to give me so much trouble

and now i am back

2005-12-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

sound like the i will survive song
i wanna meet all my friends b4 i go NS
ok got liverpool derby tonite
tata

taiwan

2005-12-19T01:11:00.000+08:00

blogging from taiwan.

thought it will be cool

handphone just died.

very sad

a lot of things happen that i oso dunno. watching things happen

sigh.

not very talkative now. shall show u the photos i take when i come back.

need to meet up people. i going to book in soon. hope i dun lose my phone contacts

missed everyone. :(

the "right backs"

2005-12-06T14:58:00.002+08:00

good bye

2005-12-06T14:52:00.000+08:00

just thought i blog before i leave for taiwan tml
anw i just started fm 2006 then i have to stop liao
so sad
i want to say good bye to everyone before i go
wah something super irritating happen la
i din win 4D
haha
i went to buy my index number 0268 for the saturday and sunday draw for the first week of december.
then i just check the winning numbers and 0224 came out for saturday's draw and 0248 came out for sunday. argh
i think 0248 might be ian yap's number. haha
sian
y nvr win
hope it works the way my friend tell me
that if ur index number dun win, u have better luck with A levels
hahaha. anw it was only 4 dollars la.
ok hope to see u people soon
a lot of people still haven send me grad night photos
anw no time to chase people or upload mine
so hang on for the time being
i said i will change to a bleach skin soon but there was some error
so i think i will change it next time la. anw have fun everybody
enjoy the 45 cents bus ride while u can

ooopz MIA

2005-12-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

sorry for people who wanted to sent me grad nite photos but i was not online
and sorry for people who tagged when there is no new post
basically i had a class chalet imediately the day after grad nite so i MIA for four days
the chalet suppose to be three days long only but somehow we had an extra day
so thats four days of X box, bridge and tiger beer gone(support jessica alba)

it great to have so much activity lined up after exams, i realise how much less sleep i got a day compare to A levels period. oooopz

grad nite was real fun, pity jackson did not win the prom king, he got kissed by that lucky guy though, woah he won lucky draw first prize somemore.

ya chalet was not bad oso. most of the class came, we don't rrly see each others alot cause there is more than ten different combis in my class if u include CL(B) and s papers as subjects. so yeah spending this time with the people who were around me but hardly see or talk to is great.

yeah i am going to MIA again soon, three weeks in taiwan, in this few days i better have more reunions and meet up with all my friends. woah i have to stop soon, need to sleep early tonight cause i am joining the 10 km standard charted marathorn tomorrow. i think i might meet some marist tml who i totally lost contact and suddenly become super fit, running the full marathron tml. wah i shall be slacking la, too much beer and too little training. i just hope i dun pull the team down.

P.S. my dad just change his car, he got a jaguar. omg i cant wait for my lisence now. i wanna sit in the driver seat. haha the back seats have so much lesser leg room, but i dun care. i am looking at the driver seat now. haha. i get to drive a jaguar. lalalalala

yay, party saturday

2005-11-27T10:10:00.000+08:00

well it was a great day yesterday, eventhough not all of my sec four class came.
only four of us watch movie in the end and then we met up with six others.
which brings the total to ten, not bad rrly.
today is sunday
tomorrow suppose to be a free day in which i can go out.
however the pipe cleaners are coming and i got to stay at home
for people reading this, i have to cancel watever appointment i have with anybody.

and so it ends

2005-11-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

well finally my papers are over.
oh yeah
and now emptiness shall take over
i will not let it be
it starts tml with the sec four reunion
lalalalalala

yes

2005-11-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

it is over
ok there is still s papers
but i am in the mood to block
yes i finished the f maths paper
din have enough time to do both papers but oh welll
ok just got attituded by some girl online
this is not good. haha
not like i rrly want to talk to her. just ask about f maths paper.
i guess i din try to talk to her in more than a year. ooopz. shud have deleted it.
ok i shall not bitch about people.
yes three days break before S papers. then the stags party at khai's house
then i need to get my hair cutted.
shall go out tml
yes. in a long long time.
oh yea, need to study s paper with my sec four class mates, haha, funny that we din even study tgt for o levels, now a levels, mug tgt.
then it is grad nite. aight, glad i got the suit early.

well, it is a relieved it is over, now emptiness shall take over. better make more dates with whoever i can meet up with before i go taiwan. wanna watch harry potter.

study I N G in the festive season

2005-11-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

halloween has passed
today's deepavali
hari raya puasa on thursday
damn i missed all this public holiday
but i will be glad if i can crammed a few more books into my head
hope every have fun during this holiday period.

LIFE
You never know how far you can go until you get there.

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lalala

2005-10-31T20:26:00.000+08:00

one more week to the time of reckoning
well some people have their exams started today already. hope the paper was easy
well to my dear jc1, hope u do well in chinese too.
got some people to come over and study tml
hope this group study thingy rrly worked as i have not been absorbing much lately.
i put in more time into reading, but cant seem to rmb anything.
the last dash

well

2005-10-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

maybe i shud give up growing a goatee
damn it is difficult being sick now
i have to stuff the tissue paper box under my right armpit and then sneeze in my left hand. cause the right winky hurt so bad

for those concern

2005-10-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

i will be ok
the hand will heal
i was assure by the doc
some stupid small bone
thanks to those that were concern
i will live on
stronger

i hate myself

2005-10-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

my worst fears
it is a fracture
means i cannot recover as fast as i want
no bball in my life for quite a while
not exactly perfect condition to study
i hate myself
y did i break down then
y did i give in to stupid emotion that i cannot even rmb now
watever happens i will not give in again
no excuse to being a failure
life was too easy b4
it just got interesting
i am still going to get the results and party after which
i will not allow myself to use this as an excuse.
tts me, i am who i am
for now,
i hate myself

hooray

2005-10-24T17:22:00.000+08:00

hey this post is just to remind myself and tell everybody that i won the newpaper ticket to ou de yang concert on nov 3rd. i had a feeling that i will win when i called that day but i was still suprised when they called me today.
well for the number of newpaper i brought over the years, i think i deserved it.
haha. wanted to go but dunno who to ask to go with me. then my mum says she want it so maybe i will give her. but look out for my name in the newpaper. haha, i found jean yong's name but i dun think it is her. it is found on saturday, sports section

crisis

2005-10-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

woah i having a bad time man
first time i want to study
and yet i just cant bring myself to do.
good talking to ching and picking myself up
i noe one hour a day is not good enough
hope it will change next week
well ching i played dota after talking to you, haha
cant sleep either, with a bad hand i managed a 1-5 b4 i left game to sleep.
thats a confession, abit guilty, well i said i have picked myself up so i guess i need some action to prove it

lalala

2005-10-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

woah i guess i can type since i played dota today
yeah
ok this page is not about girls and will nvr be
but i just have to add my own bus stop story
in fact it is a bus interchange story.
today after i played dota, i took a train all the way to bedok where i wanted to cab home.
there was a long Q for taxi and i was lazy to wait
i walked to the bus interchange and on the way there
i couldn't help looking at this vjc girl in front of me.
i decided to stop looking and went to buy new paper
i think that looking at girls from a far is such an uncool act.
after i brought new paper, i realise she is still in front of me
then she went to join the Q for bus 17
i saw the bus 18 coming and chiong for it.
sigh a number different

haha bet i caught a lot of u there. the story is half fictional... :P

ok as i was bathing, i thought throught each class in cjc and see which class i do not know anyone, there is T4 amd T5, i dunno which class colin is from. and then the rest of the classes i will at least recognise one person. well i will rmb for a few more months at least. so well, that is a little regret in my vibrant cjc life. oh well, nth is perfect. and i am definately not, better stopped slacking and reading naruto and playing with google earth. oh yeah gaara almost died. for those who noe wat i am talking about. argh there is no bleach this week. if i change a new skin. u can bet it is bleach. the payout will be like $1.15 for every dollar.

ouch

2005-10-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

i still cant type...stupid hand, i might have to relearn how to use the chopstick

Last day of school

2005-10-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

din want to post anything
to keep the previous post at the top
but it is a significant day today
today is the day that i can say that i have become a product of the singapore education system.
after twelve years, this is who i am
this is what i learn
will i be useful
will i be able to survive
who knows?

A walk down memory lane

2005-10-02T19:18:00.000+08:00

this got to be the most meangiful post til now
it is about yesterday
not that going for tuition and linette's birthday was boring
but yesterday was an important day in my life
not about playing soccer and injuring my leg in my new mizuno boots
but about visit the house i grew up in
or at least spent the first ten years of my life

the view from my house, one that i was used to

after i played soccer, i took a bus back to my old house where my dad was packing up stuff as it was about to be torn down. we sold the house in wat u call an en-bloc sales. which basically means the whole place will be demolish and new buildings will be build on the land.

i missed my stop, either delibrately or destined, i got to walk a longer path back in, one that i used to walk everyday, one which was the only one i knew for a long time. i tried to cut through the grass patch that i used to, the one behind my classmates house. forgotting that it was gone, there stood three new terrance house. gone were the mimosa that i used to step, gone were the woonden planks that i used to cross the long kang.

i walked round the street, finding the roads farmilar but yet the house were new and renovated, bartley sec school which appear when i was primary two was expanding and looked frightening huge and out of place in my quiet neighbourhood. i also notice that the mango tree growing near the grass patch was gone too. the female papaya tree was still there but it was one that never bear fruits as there was no male tree nearby.

i walked past the empty security post and the guard house which i used to play hide and seek, the see-saws behind it was gone too, it is now and extended area for the BBQ pits.

i decided to head upstairs in search of more memories, on the second floor i tried something that i did everyday when i was young. i climb the stairs using the hand rails which allows me to complete one flight of steps with one pull. it was suprisingly easy, probably because i am taller now. the rails felt wobbly, they either aged or i was getting fat.

more shocking thing was to be seen when i saw the door, it was old and definately doesn't look like the one when i left it. it is the one on the right.

it was open when i arrived and i went in to see my dad sorting out junk. i took a slow observatory tour up the steps to the next spilt level and down that ten metres corridor that i got the scar on my right shin. i discovered that all four toiilets were in a very bad state, something i would not have allow when i was staying there. my grandma's room was totally empty and i did not wish to step in and think about her. i head my room after i discover that the toilet that i used to bath in was tarnish and was burned about three years ago.
then i went to my room, to dicover that the cupboard that i use to put my clothes was still around, it was broken and all, but i can recongise it, i found a can of spray paint in my mum's room and use it to vandalise my wall, it was to be torn down anyway. i took a few photos to show u guys how high the ceiling was.
after which i went to look at the split level and the kitchen, wat memory of the first place i took the plunge literally from the top of the cupboard at the split level and the first place i was locked in by a moment of folly on my part.
As i was leaving i took a few snap shots of the place for keepsake, the same scene which i will try to keep in my head for as long as i can. the same sight will probably never appear before my eyes or anybody's for that matter.
i waited for those coconut tree to grow until they could reach my house on the fourth floor and i could the coconuts from my window. they finally did but it will all be gone soon.
just before i finished this post, this is the picture of the guard house and my dad's car beside it. i wanted to post this yesterday but i was too tired after soccer, i slept at 7 pm last night, hence it was late. oh well got to do TJC's chem sometime soon before chelski vs LFC.

maris stella

2005-09-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

first public speaking session in a long time, think i screw up a bit
hmm i am going to play street soccer tml with my new mizuno street soccer shoe

school is boring

2005-09-29T17:33:00.000+08:00

glad i get to pon school tml to go back to maris stella
=)

the going gets tough

2005-09-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

if i realize wats wrong with my life
it will be i have never got it tough
no one expects me to do better than i already have
no one told me that life was a competition with yourself

well i finally felt the weight of that expectation on me
after i missed out on F maths and chemistry already
people are telling me about the ability to do better
and the expectation to do better
it was the first time it happen
and i will not fail again

when the going gets tough
the tough gets going
i have never got it tough
i have never wanted it
now the pressure is building
and i want it

succeful people were not born lucky to have it all
it is because they want it more than anybody else
i want it
how much i want it? it shall show in in a few months time

argh

2005-09-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

everyone finished their prelims today except me
stupid f maths
argh

ok first poetry entry
if i were the rain that binds the heavens and earth
which were never suppose to mingle
could i bind the hearts of two different hearts

from bleach

Willy Wonka: everything in this room is eatable. yes, i am eatable but that, children is called cannibelism and is frowned upon in most societies

from charlie and the chocolate factory

2005-09-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

the closest i got, sigh

day break

2005-09-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

yeah, after today i get one day off
this is rare for my exam time table
well great choice not to take econs
y did i take F maths
stupid idiot

wow

2005-09-16T20:13:00.000+08:00

a week is gone and so is half the prelims
great day to celebrate this day as the chem paper 2 ended at 9 30 this morning
stayed out til 6 at night
wah all this during exam period
i took my break
time to hit the books again

life and chance

2005-09-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

ok i am not reflecting on the recent GP exam but i just needed to say this
sometimes in life there is only one chance for something
if u missed it
u missed it
no question asked
no regrets
it just slipped pass

Anyone of us, anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
'Cause I made a stupid mistake

it has begun

2005-09-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

it has begun
they are here
the all-important exam that will decide whether i get the call up
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...
wake me up when september ends

day after day night after night

2005-09-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

wasting time everyday playing minesweeper and i cant even win. i think i will go back to dota, at least i win.

well today is not so bad, i bath twice in a day, and i held my tennis racket and tried to play tennis, hah, i lost both pratise ball in the process. then i shot hoops and i am getter better.

well i thought of the love actually scene while studying. dunno why
the scene:

the french maid: you don't have to send me home, sir
the man: no, i must. it is the happiest moment in my day to spend time with you
the french maid: it is the saddest moment of my day, leaving you

the story is about the maid that went to clean the man's house everyday, well, the touching part is the woman spoke in french and the man spoke in english. they din understand each other but their hearts seem to understand. well abit fake for me, and for those who want to noe the ending, go get a DVD or borrow from khai.

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!

hell week

2005-09-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

wat study break......yeah i study but wat break

wake me up when september ends

2005-08-31T20:56:00.000+08:00

wasting time

2005-08-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

argh i wasted another saturday....
i got a new mattress today.....
just thought of posting.
shall showcase my best pieces of photography

ok some thoughts that is worth abit more

2005-08-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

A good leader

#1 Leaders relentlessly upgrade their team using every encounter as an opportunity to evaluate, coach and build self confidence.

#2 Leaders make sure people not only see the vision, they live and breathe it.

#3 Leaders get into everyone's skin exuding positive energy and optimism.

#4 Leaders establish trust with candor, transparency and credit.

#5 Leaders have the courage to make unpopular decision and gut calls.

#6 Leaders probe and push with a curiosity that borders on skepticism, making sure their question are answered with action.

#7 Leaders inspire risk taking and learning by setting the example.

#8 Leaders celebrate!!!!!

-John Welsh

yay (i am back)

2005-08-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

yes i noe it was only a day
and i am back to bitch about life
yay chem mock is over.
and i could do the qns
ole
i was sian today sulking from morning
thanks to all my frens who were concern
i guess i had not enough sleep for a few days liao
sorry guys if i acting uncool
all was fine after i played basketball
i let out my emotion and frustration
hope i get my CCA points to achieve the A

night i went to eat dinner with ivan
like other fridays
TGIF

then i cut my hair
another thing to cheer about

in end it was still a good day even though i sulk and bitch the whole morning

i better stop bitching as i did not create the blog to do tt.

i promise poetries and photographs. they will come soon

incomplete

2005-08-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

i dun like writing about my everyday life
but today was bad
i could not even concentrate during night study
and listening to sad songs on yy's mp3 made it worse

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can�t find no rest
Where I�m going is anybody�s guess

I�ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I�m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I�m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby It�s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I�ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I�m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I�m going to be is incomplete

I don�t mean to drag it on, but I can�t seem to let you go
I don�t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I�ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I�m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I�m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

i love life

2005-08-15T18:34:00.000+08:00

i had my last pe today...
sigh i will missed it
i will get over it like i do all the time

Women

2005-08-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

if i had to classify women

there will be only two types

the pink

and

the orange

cool

2005-08-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

today
i
realise
endings
only
mean
new
beginings

i felt hollow since i stepped down. i wanted to study but i could not start. i show some discipline and finished my NYAA report but i am still wasting my life playing and slacking.

today , as i see the juniors participate in the NDP CIP at tampines. i felt like they were continueing my work and that it was the start of council life for someone else as it was the end of mine. strangely i felt secure and safe. :-)

i will start studying.

i shouted at my mum again, i felt bad this time. i will try harder to not raise my voice the next time. i will let her win

y must she always win

i am no push-over

8-l

My NYAA report ( how i spend these two years b4 i serve my country )

2005-08-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

Day: 0
Date: April � June 2004

Details of activities:

I have been honing my leadership skills in Catholic Junior College by putting myself in leadership position. It started when I thought to myself whether I should run for council, a CCA that I am in since secondary school. It was the tough decision as I knew from past experience that it will be time consuming and very political. I attended a few briefings to see how is JC council different from the one in my secondary school; I realize that the part that I used to hate about Maris Stella Council is not in the JC council job scope, the disciplinary part.

Before the election, we needed to do a work form about ourselves and went through an interview. After the interview results were out. I got myself with a bunch of other guys and started campaigning. They were three other SJI boys, Donovan, Jonathan and Tze Wei who I only knew when I went for the briefing. We call ourselves A.P.E.S. the four letters represented our individual ideals then was easy for other to remember us as apes. We even had a logo that says swinging to greater heights and painted a banner at Tze Wei�s house.

We had a question and answer session with our fellow batch of student and a poster that was done by Clarence, Donovan�s friend. The campaigning was largely successful as all four of us got into council. Next up were the june holidays and we had to attend the Catholic Junior College�s Leadership Training Camp. It was a three day camp that consist of a one day seminar, when skills are being taught throught lecture and the second day was filled with outdoor activities to let us try out wat was taught. We break camp early on the third day. I will go into more detail of the second and more exciting day. In the morning, we spilt into two large details with the three council groups in different details. One detail was sent to MacRitchie Reservoir, I was in the other detail that went to a building in Tanjong Pagar. It was a rockclimbing centre, which gave us the chance to bond and help one another while conquering the bouldering walls. I gave it my all, going up and down the walls and abseiling down in a head first position. However, the tough one was the hike starting from MacRitchie and ending at Bukit Timah hill. We swap with the other detail during lunchtime; we had to carry our lunch with us until then. The hike had many checkpoints and each of us in the group had to lead us from one checkpoint to another, I lead in one of the first few checkpoint and fall back to be the last man, together with Wei Xiang. The road was long and we even had to carry �burdens� like medicine ball and bricks along with us. The journey taught us how to share these burdens and the suffering really bonded us as one.

A few days later, it was the election of the executive committee. I was lucky enough to be elected as Head of Dept for CIP. A sad note to this would be that Tze Wei was not in council anymore as he missed the LTC. There was so much to learn and do even before we were full-fledge councillors.

Day: 1
Date: 9th July 04 (Investiture)

Details of activities:

Before you could be a leader, you have to be able to act like one. I guess that was the biggest lesson I learnt through the numerous rehearsals that we had. Our investiture was held at St Ignatius Church, as this is the first year for the student council and the catholic activities council to merge as one student leadership body.

The teachers train us how to walk, sit and even how to bow. All this drills prove to be very useful in the many more formal occasions to come. I still remember one of the hymns sang at our investiture, �We are many parts, we are all one body.�

We were presented with our badges by His Grace Archbishop Nicholas Chia and took our statement of office after we received the flame from our seniors to symbolise the passing on of traditions and blessing from them.

Day: 2
Date: 26th July 04 (Track And Field Finals)

Details of activities:

Given permission from the principal to skip classes that day to book seats at the National Stadium. The bad part was that we had to reach the stadium at 5:30 am. The whole day was plan by HOD of student liaison, Tiffany Tay and she requested for as many people who wanted to go down and even booked a bus to sent them to the National Stadium. The plans to cheer the track team were strongly supported by ODAC who ran from school all the way to the stadium to join us.

It all seem to work out fine until the weather decided to play with us. It poured heavily and the race was postponed indefinately. Thankfully it soon stopped and we came out in our drenched bodies to cheer for the 1500m boys and the relay events.

It was a rather successful meet for the track team as both the girls and boys finished fourth in A division category. That was an achievement considering the track team in CJC almost close down five years ago.

Day: 3
Date: 6th August 04 (National Day fund raising)

Details of activities:

It was one of the first major projects by the Community Involvement. The charity walk is aim to raise fund for the Tan Tock Seng endowment fund and the Mainly I Love Kids fund. Some patients came from Tan Tock Seng Hospital to join us for the day�s program.

We act as usher and accompanied the patients.

Day: 4
Date: 31st August 2004 (Teacher�s Day Celebration)

Details of activities:

This event was planned by HOD of College Affairs and he tried his best to give us a different experience. Therefore besides the basic Teacher�s Day concert, the department planned a carnival that includes different sports competition like Soccer, Floorball, Netball and even had an eating competition. The program lasted from 8 � 11am, in the spirit of the theme �Hawaiian�, the attractive prizes were coconuts and pineapples.

Day: 5
Date: 1st December 2004 (Graduation Night)

Details of activities:

This was the first major project that we needed the whole council to plan it. As the members of the exco were put in charge of different committee, I was co-head of tables� arrangement, tickets and finances, together with Donovan Koh and Gabriel Olsen.

First, we had to decide whether the dinner was free seating, pre-assign tables or letting the JC two form their own tables with whoever they wanted to sit with. The first two options would make life easy for us but since it was their night and we think that they should decide for themselves.

Donovan came up with the forms, and we put them outside the council room for people to take their forms. After we think that most of the forms were in, we distributed the workload to others in the group to go home and type out the tables. After which all the tables were sent to me to compile, I labeled the table by numbers and compile them into two lists, one by class and the other by tables. It was tough as the new forms were still coming in and people asking to change tables. The period that I need to do this coincided with my promotional exams; this was a time to exhibit careful time management. It was also difficult to pass the compilation for someone else to continue, as I would have to explain each list I made. This instill so much responsibility in me that I was doing the list, the night before the exams and even rejected my mum�s offer to help me.

After the list was done, we needed to finalise it, double checking for names that appeared twice, looking for people who are going for the dinner but have not form any table, sorting out the choice of food, halah/vegetarian/chinese. It took the three of us the whole morning to sort out the names and cancelling the names of idiots who wanted to sit at two tables, and then we had to combine tables that had not enough people. After finalising the tables and consulting our teachers, Ms Soong and Ms Giam, we decided to announce their tables in the last week of their school by putting the entire table list on the notice board at the foyer. The tickets will be distributed on the day of the A levels General Paper Exams in which all JC students have to take the paper.

Next, we had to get the ticket designed and printed in time for that day. Khai was in charge of the ticket design and he had a few designs rejected. We consulted the people in the programming department who came up with the theme �glitz amd glam�. Khai first put Brad Pitts and Sandra Bullocks� picture on the ticket and it was rejected. After several other designs that were rejected. We settled for a rather plain red design due to time constraint. Gughan and Khai then help find a printing company that was able to get the job done at lower rates. This was where I learn how effective dedications of job help solve a lot of problems. I used to think that by asking someone else to do something, it was pushing responsibility to another person but in the student council, where we are all leaders, it was only right if we share the burden.

The fianance part was to be work out with the other departments, programs, sponsorship and prize and also movement and security. Mrs Sandra Tan. All expenses spend by the councillors were given in receipt to me, who will in turn claim the money for them from Mrs Tan, such as dinner for councillors and batteries. She will directly settle things that spend a lot more money, such as the backdrop, tickets and the dinner itself.

As we did not have a general meeting for quite long until the council retreat, we did not know how the other departments were doing. As we were the first department to finished out job as sort of in charge of preparation, we were now free to help the other departments, such as M�n� S who needs manpower on that day and prize who need help to call, shop and carry prizes. The program people were also busying in coming out with ideas for games and entertainment.

It all came together very well on December 1st, the night itself. We did a great job and had fun at the same time.

Day: 6
Date: 27th � 29th November 2004 (Council Retreat)

Details of activities:

This was another camp plan by the teacher�s to kick-start our planning for orientation I. It also gives us some time to finalize some things regarding gradnite. I dare say the two events were such a success because of this retreat. It was a good time to train my leadership skills. On the first day, we were spilt into our orientation department, which were headed by exco members again. I was assitant in charge with Jeremiah under Tiffany in the indoor games department.

The evening was used to brainstorm about games and then we needed to explain the games to everyone else. Tiffany also tell us that our department was in charge of the CCA passar when the students visit the different CCA booths during orientation and she wanted me to take charge of it. After the discussion when each department�s ideas were presented, we went back to our granite groups and started finalizing the planning. My department was spilt among the entertainment and M�n�S department as we have finished our job.

The next day came as a total surprise for us as immediately after breakfast, Mr Tan spilt us into four to five people in a group and told us that each group can only have one hand phone person. The rest of the hand phones will be taken away. We set out on a adventure ala the amazing race, during lunch we even tried some of the games then we suggested the day before.

After the race, we were given two hours to reflect on the whole year of council term and also about the camp itself. Mr Alfred Pang held a wonderful refection session for us as made promises to each other as well as learning about our weak points.

At night, the teachers prepared a BBQ for us to end off the retreat.

Day: 7
Date: 3rd � 7th January 2005 (Orientation I HOT)

Details of activities:

A five-day long program that we have plan for the incoming batch of students. As mention earlier, I was in charge of CCA Passar, we called a few meeting and I did a presentation. It taught me how to entertain a large group of motivated students with a lot of question. The trick was never to look in doubt and seem certain even when you are not.

I was rather busy in the five days as I was a House Head and had other duties as a councillor such as game master and coordinator. As house head, I need to buy items to represent our house identity, I realize that I seem too busy and tired throughout the whole orientation I as I did not use the help I got effectively.

Day: 8
Date: 5th � 6th February 2005 (Chingay Parade)

Details of activities:

This was the biggest project that I did as the HOD of CIP apart from the other administration of flag days and other smaller events. I learn from past experience and share the burden. I got a valued member of my department, Liying, to help me get the contacts of the person-in-charge. She asked about how we can help and they needed manpower for crowd control.

As a result of my fencing competition, I was unable to be part of the crowd control event itself. Liying was put overall in charge for this project. It came with a lot of other duties, such as getting people down for goodie bags packing. I took a backseat for once and just help in the planning and organising of the 200 over people who signed up only when I was needed.

Sub-leaders were appointed among the students and it facilitate the assigning of duties.

Day: 9
Date: 11th March 2005 (Rockafellaskank)

Details of activities:

This was a joint project by Student Activities Wing and Community Involvement Wing. They wanted a rock concert for the school and we needed to raise funds for the tsunami victims. It was a partership made in heaven.

The student activities wing took charge of the auditions and programs while we took charge of logistic and M�n�S for the night. As we are all experience now, the planning was rather fluent and had no problems.
If there was a problem, it was due to the lack of confidence that the teachers have in the concert. It was the first time we held something so big in our school and everyone was a bit apprehensive about it. As a result we put too little chairs in the auditorium to contain all the audience.

It turns out to be a huge success and telling the whole world that CJC can hold a rock concert. We also raise quite a lot of funds for the tsunami victims and also pass some donations to the CJC�s needy student fund.

Day: 10
Date: 24th � 30th March 2005 (Orientation II hot encore)

Details of activities:

We tried to use a skeleton frame of the time allocated at orientation I. However it just would not fit, this time I was part of the outdoor games department and we wanted to bring the JC one to sentosa. The whole idea was great by needed serious changes to the time allocation. This taught me that being flexible is also very important in planning.

As we wanted the non-exco members to be more active, the in-charges were all non exco members and the house head were all non-councillors. Wei Xiang headed outdoor Committee. We had a few recee trips to sentosa and even talk to the management about which are the areas that we can used and which are the ones we needed to pay in order to use.

The weather really played a fool on us this time as it rain heavily on the day that we went to sentosa. Really spoiling the fun for everyone. I was not as busy as I was in orientation I but I was use as utility man and had to move across the island in the rain from my station to the gathering point to distribute food. I was willing to work, as I understand how much stress there is on the overall in charge.

Day: 11
Date: 13th May 2005 (Eat with your Family day skit)

Details of activities:

I was in charge of a skit to show people the importance of eating with their family. We use a humorous and alternative idea to grab the attention of the people before we make the announcement of the date of the Eat with your Family Day. It was the scene of Darth Vader announcing that he was the father of Luke Skywalker.

Day: 12
Date: 20th May 2005 (CJC Sports Carnival)

Details of activities:

I was asked by Mr Tan to help the PE department in Sports Carnival. They needed official to help in the Track and Field meets. I gather the names of councillors and assign them duties accordingly. It seems to be an easy job compared many other duties that I had. I guess experience was growing in me.
Day: 13
Date: Whole council Term (Cheering For Team CJC/Morning assembly)

Details of activities:

The two duties that I have done during my council term gave me ample opportunities to speak in public which is very important for a leader as I have learn.

Day: 14
Date: 26th July 2005 (Council Appreciation Ceremony)

Details of activities:

We had only one rehearsal at this as we were now comfortable with any formal occasion and needed less practice. It was a sad occasion as it marks the end of our council term.

Night: 14
Date: 26th July 2005 (31st Council Installation)

Details of activities:

I believe a leader can only complete his journey when he has found his successor. That�s why it was important for me to take this first step with them. I was a facilitator for the CJC leadership camp this year and tried to pass down all that I knew and learn throughout my own council term.

Feelings and lessons learnt:
I will never regret the decision to join council in CJC, not with all the friends that I made and the things that I have learnt. I believe it gave me an opportunity to grow and mature as a person.

The things I have learn about being a leader:

It is not about how capable you are, it is about how effective your team is.

Be decisive. Do not be afraid of the outcome.

Bear all consequences.

Respect is earned while authority is given.

Trusting others is the key to being trusted.

kaptan of the sea

2005-08-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

yay i got this even though i dunno how to use one. i seldom read another person blog also. i just wanted a place to post unheard poems that i wrote, a place to post thoughts of my confused mind. i was nvr one good for writing but my confidence was boosted when i completed my 18K report for the NYAA.

:) i finally registered in english